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Journal Entry: Mon Nov 23, 2009, 2:51 PM
Your real name: Amanda
Age: 20
Height: 5' 3" ish
Natural hair colour: Dishwater blond
Eye color: Brown
Skin color: Caucasian
Glasses/contacts?: Contacts
Piercings: Both ears have only been pierced once
Tattoos: Thought about it, but now
Braces: Had 'em. It sucked.
Mannerisms: Smiling, grinning, laughing, being silly in general, etc.
Other distinctive markings: Currently have a tiny wart on my forehead that I haven't the money to get removed. People either mistake it for a zit or don't see it usually though, so it's all good. Usually my hair is pulled back into a half-pony tail.

FAVORITE
Color: Purple
Band: Rascal Flatts
Video game: Okami and Kingdom Hearts
Movie: Troy or Gladiator, though I love the Pirates series, and Iron Man
Book: Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton
Food: So hard to choose. Pretty much any baked good though. I love breads!
Game on a cell phone: Mine has no games
CD: None, currently
Flower: Rose
Scent: Again so many! Lavender and lilac, rose and chamomile, cherries, coffee grounds, vanilla, cinnamon, burning wood
Animal: Wolves, dogs, and horses
Comic book: Probably the Fullmetal Alchemist series for manga, and X-men
Cereal: Reese's Puffs or Raisin Bran
Website: Meh, I don't really have a favorite.
Cartoon: Gah >.> I love Danny Phantom, Fairly Odd Parents, Phineas and Ferb, Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends, and many many others both current and canceled. I swear, my inner child runs my brain.

DO YOU
Play an instrument?: Dabbled in a few, but couldn't really play to save my life.
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: No
Like to sing?: Yes!
Have a job?: Sort of? I'll be selling gift cards part time over winter break?
Have a cell phone?: Yes
Like to play sports?: Some. I'm not terribly coordinated though, and I tend to hurt myself.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes
Have a crush on someone?: On my boyfriend ^.^
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: Nope
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: Umm...I don't think so, anymore. We did have like three that didn't work at one time in the basement, xD
Have any special talents/skills?: Yes. I can shoot at a bullseye the size of this period (.) from 50 meters away. And usually I get dangerously close to hitting it :)
Exercise daily?: No, XD. I really should though.
Like school?: Yes. Or most days, at least.

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: Trying to learn XP
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: Sometimes
Speak any other languages?: Fluently? No. Moderately? Yes. 4 years of Latin in high school ^.^
Go a day without food?: Not very easily T.T
Remember your dreams: Usually. I entertain myself very well with my dreams, XD
Read music, not just tabs?: No T.T
Roll your tongue?: Yes
Eat a whole pizza?: Heck no, I'd explode!

HAVE YOU EVER
Won something in the lottery?: Yes. I believe it was like, $5, XD
Snuck out of the house?: Once, but it wasn't anything big. Just went for a walk.
Lied to get out of trouble?: Yes T.T
Had a computer crash?: Yeah. Sucked too.
Gotten lost in your city?: Maybe...
Seen a shooting star?: Yes ^.^
Been to any other countries?: No
Had a serious surgery?: I don't know if an endoscopy is serious or not...and I know I had a surgery when I was little too, but I was a baby. I think it was to correct a hernia, or something.
Stolen something important to someone else?: No
Solved a rubiks cube?: 1 side, XD
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes
Cried over a girl?: Over? No. Because of? Yes.
Cried over a boy?: Yes
Kissed a random stranger?: No
Hugged a random stranger?: Could be.
Been in a fist fight?: Does using a ruler or other assorted objects count? And does it count if it was only with my sister?
Been arrested?: No
Done drugs?: No
Had alcohol?: Yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: No
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: Yes, XD
Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom?: Not so much sneaked.
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: Nope
Swore at your parents?: Yes
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: Yes, but I usually end up missing. Hand-eye coordination: great! Foot-eye coordination: stinks!
Been to a casino?: No
Ran over an animal and killed it?: Dunno if I killed it, but I know something ran out into the middle of the road when I was headed home late one night, and I hit it. Couldn't avoid it :( I cried when I got home.
Broken a bone?: Fractured my right index finger, and possibly did something to the thumb on the same hand.
Gotten stitches?: Nope
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: Tried to once, XD.
Made homemade muffins?: Yees ^.^
Bitten someone?: Yes
Been to Disney land/Disney world?: No T.T
Burped in someone’s face?: Yes

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: Earlier today
Cried: A week or two ago. But I'll probably cry again in a few days.
Went to the bathroom: This morning.
Saw a movie in a theater: Weekend of November the 6th.
Read a book: Ooh, a couple months ago. Been busy with other stuff.
Had a snow day: We had an ice age last spring.
Had a party: This summer. Harry Potter party, XD
Went to a doctor: Earlier this summer, to the lady's doctor.
Tripped in front of someone: Probably earlier today. Seems I trip at least once every day. I just usually don't fall over because of it, xD
Went to the grocery store: Saturday
Got sick: Probably after the endoscopy. I'm not one for upchucking.
Got cursed: I'm going to assume that's, "Got cursed at". Last month.
Called someone: Last night

DO YOU PREFER
Fruit/vegetables: Depends on the fruit or veggie. Probably veggies though, since I tend to eat them more.
Black/white: I like gray.
Lights on/lights off: On
TV/movie: Movies
Body spray/lotion: Lotion
Cash/cheque: Cash
Pillows/blankets: Blankets
Headache/stomach ache: Neither really, but I can usually function more easily with a head ache, even though I probably hate them more.
Paint/charcoal: Paint
Chinese food/Mexican food: Oh geez...I love them both >.>
Summer/winter: I like Fall...
Snow/rain: Rain, when it's not in Murray
Fog/misty: Mist. Fog's creepy.
Rock/rap: Rock
Meat/vegetarian: Meat
Chocolate/vanilla: Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing: Icing
Cake/pie: Cake
Strawberries/blueberries: Strawberries, if they're alone. Blueberries if they're cooked in something, like muffins.
Ocean/swimming pool: Ocean!!!
Cookies/muffins: Gah >.> Both
Wallet/pocket: Pocket
Window/door: Door
Charles Chaplin/Chespirito: ?
Pink/purple: Purple
Cat/dog: Dog, but I <3 cats too.
Long sleeve/short sleeve: Short sleeve
Pants/shorts: Pants
Winter break/spring break: Winter break
Spring/autumn: Autumn
Clouds/clear sky: Sparse clouds
Moon/mars: Moon
Questions/Answers: Both?
War/Peace: Periods of both without too much destruction are nice.

LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Do you believe in love?: Yes
What's the most important kind of love for you?: As opposed to what other kinds? I think all types of love are important.
Have you ever been in love?: Yes
Been close to love?: Yes
If you have, with who?: My boyfriend
Ever confessed your feelings to the one you loved?: Yes
Really badly so that it actually hurts and you cry at night?: ...that's a bit dramatic. In fact, I'd say that's closer to obsession than anything. Or something a pre-teen might come up with.
Are you in a relationship?: Yes
If so, for how long?: Erm...without counting the break, 4 years. With the break, 2 and a half ish years.
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: Probably. Whether there's only one specific person for someone and if they miss their chance with them they can't be happy with someone else - no.
What is your idea of the best date?: Anything you enjoy.
What was your first kiss like?: It was nice ^.^
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: Great, now I have to think. Umm... That was in November of 2005, so I was 16.
Do you think love is worth nothing?: No
Best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex: Kissing is nice ^.^
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: Does not apply, however, no. I've only had one boyfriend.
Have you ever been dumped?: Yes
Have you ever dumped someone?: No

I...
Am: Silly
Want: My own copy of Jurassic Park, both the book and the movie
Need: My friends and my bf
Love: My friends, bf and my pets
Hate: Little
Feel: Cold
Did: not eat dinner yet
Miss: Jeremy, the dogs, my friends and fam, Kasey
Am annoyed by: Bad grammar
Would rather: be home right now
Am tired of: This semester
Will always: be ready to eat more chocolate

MISCELLANEOUS
What is your favourite genre of music?: Country or rock
What time is it now?: 4:40 pm
How much money do you have right now?: ...enough
Are you hungry right now?: Kinda
What are you doing right now?: Wanting to run to the restroom
Do you like parades?: Sure
Do you like the moon?: Yeah
What are you going to do when you're done with this?: Go to the restroom
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: I'd be an Airbender. 'Nuff said.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
Funny?: Sometimes
Cool?: Ice cold
Pretty?: I guess
Sarcastic?: Duh
Lazy?: Yeah. It's like a super power.
Hyper?: Occasionally
Friendly?: Very
Evil?: Occasionally
Unforgettable?: I hope
Smart?: Yes
Strong?: Not really
Talented?: Sort of?
Dorky?: Duh!

WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD
High: Swings
Lonely: Darkness
Pen: Pencil
Flower: Pretty
Window: Sun
Psycho: They're coming to take me away!
Brain freeze: Ice cream
Strange: Shady
Sassy: Saucy
Suffering: Pain
Art: Expression

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?: No, afraid of heights
Run away?: Probably not
Curse at a teacher?: If it was justified
Not take a shower for a week?: Eww...
Ask someone out?: Yes
Unscrew your cellphone too see what's inside?: Maybe some day
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: No, I'd rather not.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: Eventually I want to.
Go scuba diving?: Yes! Want to so bad!
Write a book?: Should have one done somewhere in the vicinity of Soon(TM)
Assemble a computer?: Nope, not that computer oriented.
Become a rock star?: Nope
Have a long-distance relationship?: In one already, sort of.
Marry someone you don't know?: No

LAST QUESTIONS ( FINALLY ) - ARRGHHHH...
What kind of computer do you have?: HP laptop with an Intel Centrino processor.
What grade/level of studies are you in? (if applicable): Junior in college
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: Sometimes...though it's a dreadful waste of popcorn.
How many posters do you have in your room?: 3 in the dorm, but they aren't hanging up right now. Tons at home.
Who else should take this quiz?: Whoever would like to :)

Got this from Achala.

  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Eldest

Questions

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 20, 2009, 1:13 PM


Ok guys,I have a couple of questions for you, and I'd really like you to respond with a comment. I'd put a poll up, but I figure this might get more responses.

1.) How many of you like Kingdom Hearts?
2.) Would you be interested in possibly purchasing/commissioning a life size replica of a keyblade and/or other weapon of your choice?

It's a project I've been thinking of doing, but it'll be expensive, so I'd only be able to give them out as gifts every once in a while. But, the money would be a help, going towards bills, books, and other school stuff.

  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Eldest

Characters

Thu Sep 3, 2009, 7:44 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Printers and typing
  • Reading: Eragon
  • Watching: Fringe
Saw Adi doing it and had to copy... Though I'll probably not be including anything/one I haven't used or thought about using in the past 3 years. Also, I'll be updating this list off and on. I know I have a few more floating around in my head that haven't really finalized themselves, so I won't list them for now. I'll add to this as it grows.

A

Ambrose (shared)
Aniu
Apollodorus

B

Bandit
Blitz
Borealis
Brava

C

D

Dairine (? Name not finalized)

E

Elric
Esen
Evelyn (Evie) (Nefertiri)
Evvie

F

Faelan

G

Grace (? Name not finalized)

H

Holly

I

J

K

Kaera (shared)
Keso

L

Leila
Lydia

M

Marz
Micah
Mika

N

Naila
Nessa
Noraniu

O

P

Q

R

Reilly
Rozene

S

Sachi (shared)
Sanguinaria
Seizure
Silverwind
Somnia
Styx
Sukasa

T

Tatsu
Teris
Textrix
Twilight

U

V

W

X

Y

Z

Zenny (shared)



Current Total: 39 listed

Hiatus gooood...

Wed Jul 8, 2009, 8:49 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: That 70's Show
  • Reading: Rp posts and witty side remarks
  • Watching: That 70's Show
  • Playing: as Sanguinaria
  • Eating: Wish I was, I need a midnight snack >.>
So, yeah. I've been away and all that. But, I promise it was for my own good. All in all, I was just getting really sick of the internet day in and day out, so taking a month and some odd days off has been really good for me. Not to mention during that time I went on my epic vacation to Panama City, Florida with my friends. It was niiiice. Still haven't found a summer job, which sucks cause even if I did now I'd only have 5 weeks max to work until I have to go back to school again. But, hopefully I'll find a part time job there. In other news, I've worked a little more on a couple of fan fics, finally found a design I think might be acceptable for Nor, and I'm back to rping at one of my favorite chat sites. Just getting back into the swing of things now. Sorry again that I've been so quiet, and I've missed you guys something fierce!

<3 You guys!

*EDIT* Haha! Fixed that sleep deprivation induced dyslexic spelling error.

Whormay, Ave Q, Puppehs, and Sadistic Exam Nazis

Tue Apr 28, 2009, 10:18 AM
  • Mood: Rant
  • Listening to: The More You Ruv Someone
  • Reading: Notes and stuff >.<
  • Watching: Her life spin out of control for a week or two
Well, as you can guess by the non-existent uploading I've done, I haven't really gotten anything done, still. There are good reasons for this, many. I'll go with the less rant-filled ones first.

Last weekend I went to Cincinnati, Ohio with friends to go to the zoo and see the Broadway musical Avenue Q. It was effing amazing! Admittedly, I was a little bothered at first when I noticed all of the differences between the singers on the original soundtrack and the ones performing that night, however, as the show went on it was hard not to feel like I hadn't heard these new voices all along. The delivery of the jokes and timing was amazing and I absolutely loved all of the material I never saw between the songs. If you ever get the chance to see it, I highly recommend it!

Now we'll move onto the slightly unpleasant things, namely, finals. Although I've been dancing and singing because this week is the last week of the spring semester and I soon get to go home for the summer (the week is dragging on so long!) it also means that towards the end of this week and until next Thursday, I'll be studying my ass off for my finals and working hard to finish up the remaining work. As a result, I won't be on again for a bit (not even sure when I'll be regular again, considering that I desperately need to get on the ball and find my new part-time summer job and write scholarship essays. I swear, it never ends!) In addition to this, my plans for moving off campus next year have been shot in the head (literally) due to a potential roommate's indecision and I've been trying to fix these plans unsuccessfully, so my stress level has already risen to its peak (it's over 9000!!!!), especially with all of the work I still need to get done this week.

Moving past school and onto something good that might be coming, I may be getting a new dog. This is probably not going to happen, since the guy hasn't returned our call, but I still wish it will. More will come on that if it does happen. In addition, I've been wearing my mom down on the idea of bringing our two older dogs inside the house for good. Yay sympathy card! She's finally beginning to agree that my eldest dog, Gwen, should be inside and comfortable since she's having such a hard time getting around with the tumor on her leg.

As for actual news on my progess...I don't have much. I'm developing a new idea that will involve Balto Source in a fanfic (yes, the site) and users there, so if you're interested in being in it, let me know. Also will probably being working on a pirate story here in a bit and maybe begin re-writing an Avatar: The Last Airbender rp that I'm in into a fanfic of sorts, if we decide to do that. If not, then just forget I mentioned it. I have what I got done on chapter 2 of Nova Vita last month ish and so I'll post a little portion of that since I've posted nothing new for it in a while (though I know it only has like, 2 readers at the moment.) The teaser will be at the very end of this after the asterisks (******).

Now for the part that I just need to rant about. Skip it if you want (dashes ---- indicated the beginning of the rant), I don't expect comments and I don't want sympathy, I just need to let some frustration out so that I don't blow a gasket and can approach this from a rational point of view (or as rational as I can, given the situation) again.

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As some of you know (and many of you don't) I used to have a good friend (for the sake of anonymity, my own personal humor, and to aid in ranting effectively I shall refer to her as Twaty Whormay) who did some awful things. Long story short and so I don't sound too terribly bitchy and whiny, she was the driving force that caused my boyfriend (we'll call him Michigan J. Frog) and I to have problems in our senior year of high school (before that point, we were very stable and happy, having dated for over a year.) Twaty had just realized how bored she was with her boyfriend, another mutual friend of us all and they had a nasty breakup, the details of which do not belong here. So, she moved in to seize Michigan J. because she'd recently felt her feelings for him rush to the surface (or so she told me.) Long story short, he broke up with me and then the two of them kept it secret what was going on (Michigan because he still cared, and Twaty because, well, she's a deceptive, manipulative bitch who chose a boy over one of her best friends.)

Twaty told me about it on the worst day imaginable, but proceeded to lie about details and such, yada yada. She pretended to want to continue our friendship and I gave her a chance that she epicly screwed up a second time. Michigan was more sincere and at least told me that he did somehow manage to care for Twaty (no idea why after he saw who she really was, but that's beside the point) and we stayed good friends after a great deal of silence, yelling and ranting at him on my part. Twaty gave up on Michigan (violently and angrily, I might add) when he wouldn't openly confront me about their secretive relationship (this was during the fall semester of last year, my freshmen year of college). Michigan was hurt, much the same way I was at first, though the situations were different. After a great deal of forgiving and self-therapy on my part, I stopped being angry at Michigan and went back to trying to make things the way they used to be again.

We are currently again a couple (since last spring) and again are happy (*reminded of Avenue Q and Christmas Eve's song, The More You Ruv Someone.) I left out many of the details for brevity, so if you're confused, I appologize. Now, onto my actual rant:

Twaty's contacted Michigan again and they've been talking more and more recently. She's "forgiven" him and he all along just wanted us all to be friends again and get rid of the tension. I know that he doesn't want to leave me and has no further interest in her, but Twaty is a snake in the grass that, honestly, deserves to be run over by a lawn mower. I'm tired of her trying to muscle her way into my happiness and make me miserable for it, as I realized she'd been doing all along. So, I sent her a very carefully worded (I wouldn't say "polite", but anyone reading it who didn't know the situation may not have detected the seething tension beneath) message and told her to stop talking to Michigan.

She denied my request and went so far as to call me childish in the same carefully worded manner that I used originally (deviating from her normal chatspeak, *shudders*) because I know better than to trust her. She even said, and I quote,

"Also I am sorry but I do not want to sever my ties with Michigan completly as you have asked. He was and is first and foremost my best guy friend and you simply do not abandon your friends because someone tells you to. If you wish I will limit the amount of time me and him talk, since I realize that there are times that he talks to me far more than he talks to you..."

So cocky and self-centered! I'm not just "someone" I'm his girlfriend, and best female friend for nearly 3 years collectively. If anything, he certainly shouldn't even be her "best guy friend" anymore, just with the way she treated him and figuratively "bitch-slapped" him when he didn't want to further devastate me. But, this is probably just because she's been pouring on the sweet talk and since every other human with a penis she's tried to seduce have run away from her screaming. And funny how he talks to her so much, according to her.

I've been sitting on that reply for a few days now, twiddling my thumbs so that I don't rip her throat out with a particularly nasty response. I've been far too forgiving and calm throughout this whole situation and I'm honestly dying to actually to say something I shouldn't. I'd really love to just go key her car right now, or kidnap her cat and set it free. But, unfortunately theft and vandalism are felonies. So, I'm just sitting here, biding my time. Michigan has agreed to tell me when he talks to her, because even though he still doesn't understand why I'm still so angry and self-conscious about this whole thing, he does care. They talked yesterday. She's making no effort to limit their conversation as she said she would. Lying *mutters indiscernibly*. I have to take further action and make her realize that I won't take this lying down. The question is, what can I do legally that will send the message through her thick, sex-crazed skull? Meanwhile, I'm getting more paranoid about Michigan talking to her >.>

If you sat through and read that...I'm sorry. I just needed to vent somewhere else so that maybe I can focus through the rest of the week. I don't really expect anyone to reply or comment. If you want to, you can. I'll muddle through this somehow >.<

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Teaser!

Nova Vita
Chapter 2: Asylum In Caelum

Disclaimer: I do not own Balto, Balto: Wolf Quest, Balto: Wings of Change, any of the characters from the movies, or the designs for Faelan, Nessa, Evvie, or Brava. I also don’t own Nava, Aleu, Niju, Nuk, Sumac, Yak, or any of the other characters from the above listed movies. Universal does. However, I do own the character personas for Faelan, Nessa, Evvie and Brava. I also own the plot idea for this fic, and all original characters introduced in it.

The daylight had already begun to fade elegantly from the sky, casting long shadows from the trees onto the ground. Although it still played about at the edges of the trees, soon it would vanish for the day, and the night would rule over. However, this fact didn’t seem to deter three mischievous pups from going about their play. A large male, mostly black in color, tackled the other two, a mostly white male with strange curly, silver markings and a gray and white female whose wavy markings looked to be almost a pale blue.

“Haha, got you!” The bigger male pup shouted with glee, pawing at his brother and settling his rear on his sister.

“Alright, come on, let us up,” the white and silver pup whimpered, his voice somewhat high-pitched for his gender.

A mostly gray female with white stockings, brown toes on her front paws, brown ears and a purple, heart-shaped mark over her right eye laughed airily at the youngsters. “;Play nicely, kids. If you’re not good, I’ll tell your father and he won’t take you on that trip he promised you.”

A resounding moan went up from the three and they disentangled themselves, going back to a rousing game of tag instead.

“Ah, just let them be pups, Alphess. They won’t get the luxury of playing like this their whole lives,” a white male laying beside the Alphess said. His eyes were just barely ringed with a light blue color, and more small hints of the same sky blue pattern could be seen just at the bottom of his chest, under his chin and at the tips of his ears. If he’d stood up, more blue would be visible on his toes, belly and small parts of his tail as well.

But instead he just stretched and yawned, looking over at the third body in the rather large clearing. It was a female, larger than the small male was, and she had lovely rust red fur merged with a yellowish tan, creating flaming patterns all around her body, including what resembled a meteor on her torso. Her eyes were closed lightly, and her breathing slow, which caused the male to smile. But suddenly his ears perked and he moved his yellow eyes up and around the area.

“Alphess, I sense a presence. Nay, two.”

The Alpha female didn’t move from her position, but instead waited, looking over at him curiously. “Go on, Zenny. What can you see?”

His yellow eyes had become clouded and opaque in the few seconds since he’d spoken. “Caribou. And a wolf. No, a wolf-dog. She’s hunting, but…” He trailed off and began shaking for a few moments. “;Pain,” he said, wincing violently before he went into a fit of spasm. By now, the children had looked up and the other female had awoken and all were looking in concern towards Zenny. The Alphess rushed over to him, huddling over him and whispering something inaudible to the small crowd around them now. Gradually he calmed and the spasms ceased, leaving him panting and shaking slightly from the effort to even lay still. And then all of them heard a loud bellow in the distance, presumably from the caribou Zenny had spoken of.

“Kaera, get the pups back to the den and let Sachi know that we may have company. She may need to move Mika to the smaller den I dug out when we got here. Don’t let Nor, Teris, or Silver out of the den until I send word back to you.”

With a silent nod, the rust red and yellow tan female turned and tipped her head back towards the den. The pups looked, with wide eyes at her, then back to their mother once before following her without a fuss.

When they were gone, the Alphess turned back to Zenny and quietly asked, “Can you lead me to her?”

With a hesitant nod, Zenny started to rise, stumbling and having to lean on the gray female for support several times. “She’s hurt badly. We need to hurry and get her back, otherwise she’ll suffer much damage.”

The Alphess nodded sharply and together, the pair set off towards the light brown hybrid, the white wolf leaning on her most of the way.


A wolf as white as the snow falling around her stood against a fuzzy gray background. But beyond the wolf, everything else seemed incoherent. This didn’t matter of course; it was the wolf that was truly important anyway. Somehow she knew this, even before she spoke to her. Her face had a worried, motherly look about it, though it was almost painful to even look at her.

“Aleu,” the alto voice seemed to sing, very feminine and motherly, but with a hastened tone.

Aleu felt herself drifting, her mind slowly becoming more fragmented and her vision becoming incomprehensible. Edges were beginning to blur now and colors were running together, as if the whole scene before her had been painted in watercolor.

“You are destined to lead this pack and unify them again, under the laws which govern the wild. But first you must learn what it is to be wild; to be a wolf. You will be a great Alphess some day, but you must not lose sight of that goal, now that you have a chance to attain it. If you do not work for it, it will not come to pass.”

The white wolf’s form was fading now, blurring into the gray that was all around the both of them. Finally black rushed in on the gray and the scene vanished right before her eyes, leaving nothing but a ghostly echo in her ears as evidence that the exchange had occurred.



Aleu opened her eyes slowly, and only a fraction of the way to see another white form peering over her at first, still blurry and appearing to be much the same as the one she’d just encountered. “Aniu?” Her voice choked on the name and a cough wracked her weakened body before her eyes quickly closed again and sleep claimed her.

Zenny’s brow raised and his gaze moved over to the Alphess, who was also seated in the small den with them, but along the other earthen wall. “How did she know your name?”
Aniu shook her head and grinned. “You forget, Zenny, that I share the same name as the goddess.” A light laugh left her lips and a grin pierced her face from ear to ear as the male blushed, realizing his mistake. “Come, let’s get Sachi so that she can continue to work on our new friend.”

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